College Cured my Fibro? + Life Update

Hi everyoneeeeee! Its been a really long time and I honestly apologize. Ive been so indecisive with what direction I wanted to go in, and whether or not I even wanted to pursue this (especially with the lack of support). I have also been going through A TON of personal hurdles, as I know many of you have also encountered. Im not sure how frequently I’ll be posting, but I really hope you stay with me.

If you follow me on social media (shameless plug down below), you know that I’ve been getting used to college life. I was really worried, and I thought my body might reject it. Its November now, and I think its safe to say that we are in the clear! I feel like dorming and college life actually suit my needs better than traditional school did. I can tailor my classes to my liking (thanks to the AMAZING team of disability directors here) and im not forced into a regiment. I love my friends, they made it so easy to come out as a spoonie, and my support system has been so essential in helping me adapt to this new chapter.

Something I did want to address is the thing Ive found myself struggling with most, my depression. As many of you know, I have battled depression for a long time, especially SAD. Now that the weather is colder, and the nights are longer, I find myself more and more scared to be alone with my thoughts at night. My prayers have increased, and I sometimes find myself crying out for help to deaf ears. I know that many of you may feel the same way, or even worse. It is difficult for me to write this, my pride and ego are screaming at me not to, but I am writing this for those of you who feel completely alone in a crowded room.

I am always with you, I feel the same way. I am blessed, and feel guilty to even attempt to complain about my pain, but I know it is essential to my growth as a person and as an advocate. Please feel free to reach out to me at any time if you ever feel afraid you might harm yourself or others, I am always here to talk to fellow spoonies.

I love you to the moon and back,

Ci xoxo

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